The inner drive of jujitsu.

Today's practice for was very frustrating to say the least, my brain and body were at odds with one another, as they most always are. During our rolling session I came close to getting a few submissions, but couldn't seem to apply them to completion.

I left class with a friend of mine, and as he was getting closer to my home, I thought "If I only had made a few adjustments here or there, I would have had them!"

It gets really frustrating and taxing at times, my dad reminded me today that, with my condition my body probably uses 3 times the strength of the average person. Also that many others can move a lot faster than I can.

What I've come to realize though, is that same frustrating feeling that comes upon me is really nothing more than an inner drive or resolve to push through things. To keep showing up to class and giving me all each time.

The ability to find your own inner drive ( I believe) means for then our failures and it means more then our ability to win or loose. All that matters is that you keep going, no matter what.  

Ugh.. Wow

Almost a three hour practice tonight, had a great private lesson/beating with my wrestling coach. Then rolled for another hour (or maybe longer). Were finally getting down to what is working for me.

22 days away. And I'm already on weight.

Goal

To stay around 125 lbs for next tournament :)

Breakfast

Cottage Cheese, with: Mango, Strawberries and blue-berries .

One Hard-Boiled egg

and Coffee.

Training is going well. I'm ready to rock!

Next tournament June 22nd! Lets do this.

The Path of The Humble.

"I learned Jiu-Jitsu by being tapped left and right, up and down. I use to come to class knowing that I was going to get tapped 20, 30, 40 times a night by Helio Gracie's sons.

The only thing I could do was put a smile on my face and come back the next day for another 40 times. I was an expert at getting submitted." -8th Degree Master Pedro Sauer

Reorienting Our Motives and Mind

Like everything in life, you want to do things for the right reasons. Tonight after talking with my coach, it came to be known to me that my purpose in doing Jujitsu had be become twisted up. Instead of doing it for the love of it, I became so focused on proving myself and making rank.

Jujitsu can be very tough on a person if your mind and heart are not in the right place. It has brought me to pits of discouragement and wanting to throw in the towel.

But I'll keep going at it, no matter how sloppy I look at times.

I'm gonna do this!