Today's practice for was very frustrating to say the least, my brain and body were at odds with one another, as they most always are. During our rolling session I came close to getting a few submissions, but couldn't seem to apply them to completion.
I left class with a friend of mine, and as he was getting closer to my home, I thought "If I only had made a few adjustments here or there, I would have had them!"
It gets really frustrating and taxing at times, my dad reminded me today that, with my condition my body probably uses 3 times the strength of the average person. Also that many others can move a lot faster than I can.
What I've come to realize though, is that same frustrating feeling that comes upon me is really nothing more than an inner drive or resolve to push through things. To keep showing up to class and giving me all each time.
The ability to find your own inner drive ( I believe) means for then our failures and it means more then our ability to win or loose. All that matters is that you keep going, no matter what.
